The second bit of news is that I sold my iMac. My apartment manager is a big Mac guy and while his offer is on the low end, not having to deal with eBay and scammers and 14 day return policies is probably a worthwhile tradeoff.
Honestly, I don't think I want to be here and that may underly what's really going on. I love the cats and have gotten complacent in this climate and apartment but I have no connection to this place anymore. I think I have to be willing to face the elements, live in shelter for a time, and just deal. I'm smart enough to climb out, even I believe in myself that much.